May 2010
68 posts
reason. you wanna know why
its only because you my… that im giving it to you now. i’d be a nice person and suck it in. i breath.
lately, I’m always hungry, cranky and desire alcohol at every possible situation. It is impossible that I’m pregnant. So what now?
3 Years.
GWAD. the last time I saw you was in December, when you came to surprise me.
You were suppose to be back sometime next week. But plans have changed. Now you’re gonna stay in Perth for another 3 months. Which would be till lat August or early September, of which I wouldn’t be around anymore. You’d be back in Singapore for another 2 months, and I’m not gonna be there.
The...
“But who prays for Satan? Who, in eighteen centuries, has had the common humanity...”
– Mark Twain
You have no idea how much I wanted to punch you yesterday. The more I thought of it, the more I wanted to punch you face. One is for my mother and two its because you’ve been a really shitty friend.
i’m glad we talked and i manage to convey my thoughts over. lets just wait and see now eh.
yes angry, but more than that, i’m disappointed and very very hurt by what you’ve...
Some days (like now) I do which that I was an accounting major. My mom was an awesome accountant and she did my dad’s accounts really really nicely. Now aunty connie has to come help my dad with the company’s account. mehhhhh. Then again, I’m just hoping that I could help.
I’m an effing econs/tip major. How can I help? Nothing. I continue cleaning the house. OCD. its...
awkward
how awkward/weird can it get when you start crying while walking on the road. MEH. I can’t believe that I couldn’t have a lil more self control, a lil more restraint. But it was so nice to hear yumi’s voice all the way from melb. :)
confused
I kinda need help.
My initial plan for August would be to head for the GSLC Conference from the 8th-14th and then fly to Vancouver all the way till the 22nd.
Thats my initial plans. For the past couple of days, I kinda decided that I would fly straight back to the states after my internship and tour the place.
Now GSLC sent me an e-mail telling me that I’d get pretty good stuff
an...
Happy moments- praise God Difficult moments- seek God Quiet moments- worship God Painful moments- trust God Every moment- thank God
Field-Homewood →
not because im being biased. but I think cas did a really nice cover for “Always be my baby”
if it weren’t for all those family dinners that I’ve to turn up at, I do not like to eat now and have little intention to. I just don’t feel hungry.
gonna fly away
that said, im booking my tickets in a bit. The questions of when will I come back, will I come back and what nots cannot be answered as yet. adios singawhore. see you in a bit.
coming fall
I am keeping every single part of my body crossed, hoping that sarah would move to austin so that we can officially set up our lil geylang.
I gotta join the marathon group and start running. I miss running and according to my brosef, I really did pack on the pounds. :(
I needa start playing tennis in college.
I needa deal with 19credits. :(
As for now, I’m just glad I had so much fun...
A break
I am so excited that dad and I would be headed out for a short vacation at the end of the month. I believe it is going to be fun and it is going to be a long awaited break. Nothing beats spending some quality time with my dad now.
So as of a couple of days ago, I do nothing but lie on my couch that is facing the beautiful pool, typing and just surfing the web with my lappie. I do not have the...
The confusion.
DISCLAIMER: I would be talking religious stuff in this post.
Whatever happened last night, I wouldn’t deny it at all. I know what I felt and I know what I heard. I’m not going to deny that at all, and up till this evening, I was really sure that it was the spirit of my mom that came back. In Chinese tradition, it is said that on the 7th day of the passing on, the spirit of the dead...
tradition
last night was mind blowing. Chinese tradition states that the spirit of the dead would return home on the seventh day to visit the family.
I had an experience that has now left me with many questions. I need closure soon.
I've got it all planned
First I settle all my mom logistical stuff. Then I’m taking my dad on a trip. Then I’m gonna shut down and be away. Go somewhere, do something crazy.
Until then, its time for chocolates and its tine for dinner. I’m hungry yet again.
And, I had such a weird dream last night. Idk what it means. It just felt real, it feels like september all over again. It felt like those moments...
i don't know if i would be able to cry again
I really don’t, I miss my mom, I really do. I tried so hard to be so strong over the past few days it now feels like I’ve managed to keep everything down, all emotions, all the pain and all the sorrow. I don’t feel like crying anymore, but I feel that there is so much in me, so much pain, so many words left unsaid. When you try your best but you don’t succeed When you get...
Where my mom is gonna be
I had a dream a couple of days before my mother passed on. In that dream, I dreamt that my mother had already passed away and that I brought some of the ashes to Vancouver and scatter them in sea there.
What a coicicental dream. I’m headed to Vancouver at the end of summer. And on the flight back, I was chatting to a Canadian couple that told me how beautiful Vancouver is.
So here’s...
Okay, its mothers day. I got my hair done, got me mother her favorite purple tulips. EPIC. I was surprised that there were still tulips in stock tho.
Anyhow, on another note, yumi got to pay her respects to my mother via skype. that is EPIC. It was completely awkward tho, everyone was staring at me when I took the laptop over to the coffin. hahah. but wth, my mother loved her. and pong to to pay...
Mother's Day
Today is Mother’s Day. Happy Mother’s Day Mummy. I love you, always have always will.
In loving memory of my mother. :) The strong, the heroine, the pillar, the only one
Mom’s gone. She really is, woke up this morning and everything is still so surreal can’t believe that all of these are still happening.
Not too sure exactly how I feel now, but I just hope that my dad and I would be able to tide through this together.
I hope my dad’s would stay healthy. He’s starting to cough and I can’t help but to worry that he’s not...
